Tuesday, October 28, 20086:42 AM
I'm not feeling good these days, not physically but just my mind doing the bad. I'm tired of waking up early now that extended circulum had started. I'm tired of seeing faces and entertaining nonsense. I'm tired of doing work and attending whatever i have to. I'm tired of Chinese O's though i had not even started studying(But what is there to study? I don't understand) I'm tired of silent confiding in my diary. I'm tired of whining to Best and sorry you have to suffer listening. I'm tired of pretending that i don't know anything and laugh out loud. I'm tired of missing....
I don't understand life now that i don't even have a dream. What's the point that i wanted to turn back to Sec 2 life or even the past if by right i should treasure what i have now, knowing that i would miss now when i'm sec 4 having o's. I'm sick of listening break up stories, reminding me how fragile human relationships gets. I hate it when i just can't help but just to watch my friends go depressed. I hate emo but what am i doing now .
Tell me why things changed. Explain to me why am i feeling this way. Answer me why i missed it so badly. I don't wanna know, but you gave me the reason. What an irony. Seriously i am typing crap so don't mind me .
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