This is really the toughest decision ever in my life k. I really feel like a total loser, seriously.

Basically, my class's given a choice to combine or continue their sciences now. All my teachers been telling me to combine my science to secure the A1 . Its like you'll still be having pure science lessons(that's for bio, im not sure of others), but you'll be having a much easy paper, which is combined, that's sure to get my A1, with less effort. Such temptations. However, the thing to worry is what happens next? Good results to good JC, but what if i couldn't cope with it eventually?

My bro says it's important to get my pure science foundation right. So what if i get good results for combined science, i'll definitely suffer in JC. My dad told me to try my best, it doesnt matter how bad my result will be eventually, as long i did my best, as long as i'm not overstressed, everything's good. And my friends say.. my teachers say... But i know i should stop listening to everybody, and listen to my heart and make decisions on my own. But i'm really super stucked. D:

Andthe most !!!!! thing is, I AM DOUBTING MYSELF, LOSER RIGHT.

My o's chi is a B3. Geez, chi is one of my able subjects, yet i got a 3. A B3 for normal chi now, is likely to flunk their higher chi, based on laoshi's experience for the past years.Laoshi say i have to write letter to confirm if i'm staying or going back normal chi. I don't know if that point of time, if i really did my best. But now, i really have no idea what im capable of alrdy.

What the hell is wrong with me D: