Okay, i must do this quick. Before fronda comes back from her shower, we are watching this variety show called " We got married". It's reallly goood!!! OMG. the best spontaneous show i had watched ever. I'll get on with that next time.

First things first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA TAN LI YING!!! ;D
A wide smile would be pasted on my face everytime i think of you. [: Dear sunshine/ex table-partner, have a blessed 16th! May all your wishes come true. And you know we love you always and forever. ;D

And, all the best for those having chinese o's tmrw. [:

Is today a productive day for me? Actually, i'm not very sure HAHHA. At first, i wanted to complete all my tuition work today. So i went downstairs to study, however. Plane geometry is too boring and difficult!!! Half the time, i'm copying the answer off my teacher's. And my eyes would start feeling very heavy. I don't know why, but i need to stop my work. It was then fronda went down to find me. And then, we went to gym next door HAHHA. I started with 2kg of dumbells, and after a while i changed them to 1kg. I realised i can carry them effortlessly!! AHAHHA. k i know i'm a tard. But it's been so looooooong since i work out. (and that i've stopped playing netball)

Went back home to rest. My intial plan is to just watch some movie online while i eat my lunch then get back to work. HOWEVER!!!!! i'm strucked with this show. OMG ITS REALLY GOOD. I'll type a nice detailed intro soon, and influence everyone to watch it!!!! WAHAHHHAHA!

Gee. Why fronda bathe so fast eh. K, got to switch my tabs now. I'll be back! ;D

I didn't go school today. Laoshi's busy teaching 4C for their upcoming O's, and we're literally having free periods for chinese intensive.(how irony) So today, i decided that i don't want to get up early to school lab to play facebook or watch Boys over flowers video.

I went shopping with mama. With shopping bags, we conquered town!! HAHAHA i'm exagerating. But it's fun lol. I'm in a bras craze, and i don't know why i'm just a tard k lol. When you love something, your eyes just naturally zoom in to things you want(like a camera). And when i spot something, it would be letting myself down if i just don't get those cute lil intimates. That's how i start spending again, even though i really wanted to save $ and repeatedly told Best i dont want to shop anymore. And omg, it's great sg sales! I would be indirectly saving money if i get things cheap. HAHA! What an excuse. Lol, i'm just crapping again, you can ignore whatever i just typed.

Yesterday was shopping time with best and daught. Actually, we just wanted to get * for someone. But when we saw sales at taka, our instincts made us move forward. Spent like an hour there. And after we got out of the departmental store, i realised. Why the hell did i buy tanktops for? LOL. Why did i get them again, when i have those of the same colour lying around at the corners of my room. Gee, this proves again i'm a tard! Ignore this too.

I think i'm just feeling empty inside. I don't why. It's rare to see me online. And these rare moments happened just last night, and today. HAHA. I dislike when people i dont know or not close with, start conver. with me, and i have to entertain them. It would be tedious if i'm going to block them one by one. So i decided to have a peace of mind by not even signing in. So yeah, despite that, i'm online today. It was then what wee talked to me online, set me thinking. We talked about life, and she told me to think of what i really want in life. I was clueless, no, i am clueless. i think, it's been so long since i really slow down and think about myself, about my own control of life.

I'm blinded by results, shopping, outtings. I forgot the most important thing in life. I got an ugly E8 for english, and this is the first time an E8 ever appeared in my report book throughout four years of secondary schooling. Even at this point of time, i feel so lousy that i think that i'm typing broken english.And well, i shouldn't let it bring me down. I'll defintely work harder.

I went on complaining to wee, "even * have boyfriend. look at them, so sweet." Lol, i wondered why i even said this. But then she asked me, why am i so unhappy and tired while trying to find happiness. If it's so, then it's not happiness. She told me, different people have different view on lives. Thinking again, what she said is so true. It's up to me to define my own happiness. And i have to find back my reason of living in this world. Of course, it's not just having a stupid boyf, and look so sweet&close with him infront of the camera, and then post it as my profile pic, and introduce to everyone as "my boy" and.... AHAHHAAH. It's so ridiculous, i don't wanna go on. But at least, most of my readers get my drift. And it's also not just having those pieces of cloths bombarding my wardrobe. There's gonna be more to life. So, i am going to find it back.

Thanks lover, i miss going to clarkequay with you, having heart to heart talks and enjoying the sea breeze. It's holidays now. I think we can have more time together. Provided, i must study hard too! ;D

This is one in a million long post in my recent blog. And yup, i won't blog as often and most of my next post would just be pictures i suppose. ;D CIAO!

You looked me into the eye.
And told me you loved me.
Were you just kidding

I'm in school lab 2 now.
Gee, my whole day is spent here. Free lessons, so much for chinese intensive. I wanted to blog loooooooooooooooooong time, but i'm always distracted HAHAA!! Just now we were looking at clothes, then gossiping at blogs, then awkword lay her heavy butt on me, then hot news hot news then we kpo kpo!! HAHA.

My life is in a mess, and i feel so sucky lousy now. D:

Maybe it's because my room is in a mess now, with shopping bags and clothes hanging around. I stare blankly at my wardrobe, and felt i had no clothes to wear. I felt i can't even complete a simple task, which is simply to choose clothes for tmrw. This sucks. Maybe it's because i felt extremely exhausted as i had not slept last night. Maybe it's because i'm going to have my 16th party tmrw, and i haven't come out with any plans abt it yet. Everyone been asking me what time to meet, i told them i had no idea. People i thought they would turn up for sure, are not coming. People that i couldn't invite, understands me. Gee. I don't wanna probe on it further.

Ever experienced that you know you're gonna face another broken promise again, yet you prayed that time would prove you wrong? Ever felt like, damn it's not gonna come true, yet you're hopelessly thought things would change? Ever felt like destroying everything in sight, cause that's exactly how your heart feels? I'm so foolish to even think that i'm done and over with those nonsense.

Sigh, i'm so hell tired.

It's been long since i blogged. Half the time i was blog hopping, thinking if i should delete my blog or do sometime to it. Cause i really have no time to blog, and it'll be distraction for me. Whatever, i shall keep things as it is for now. Hmm. Many things happen these days, Cia's birthday, MIDYEAR, ups and downs. I've been confiding in my diary anyway. This year's MYE ain't going to be great. I'm guilty of studying last minute. Oh wells.

There's 2 desperate things in my shopping list right now. I WANNA GET A SQUASH RACKET! I'm so so going to pick up that sport after MYE. I've not been exercising ever since netball stopped, getting fatter! So i wanna learn that, and work out! It's fun and stress reliefing too! BAGUS! ;D 2nd thing is to get A WATCH! I always lost track of time, and that's terrible esp during papers, i don't even know what time is it until the invigilator says 5mins left! Then i'll be frantically trying to finish up my paper. To think of those papers, maths is the most horrid one. Always always, never fail to copy wrong question.
Sian. AND YEAH. I'm so going to shopping!!!!!! DAWN VAL SURE AGREE WITH ME!!!

Today is my solo day. I went Valley point to do my tuition work and mug. For i'm always distracted by tv (watch Love and Law) at home. Yup, quite a productive one, i spent 4h there. Dark mocha berry is good! ;D And i saw Helena too! It's nice catching up with her. [:

Fronda called me and asked if mother's day today! I totally freaked out cause i haven't get anything yet! I know i'm such a bad daughter D: Luckily, wee told me mother's day is tmrw. So off i went to Great world to buy ingredients to make a delicious breakfast for mummy tmrw. I'm not sure if i can make it not, for i haven't been touching the pan since home econs 2 years ago? HAHA. I thot i was smart to take a quick bus ride to great world, and skipped the long queue by paying Nets. I was so impressed with myself until....... I RECOLLECTED THAT THERE'S A FREAKING COLD STORAGE STANDING AT VALLEY POINT ALREADY! -.= How dumb. I know val sure laugh at me lol.

I will definitely cut down on posting. So, wait long till you see the next one! ;D