I have no mood no mood no mood to do my work. D:I'm aware that Prelims is in about two more months time, but i feel no sense of urgency.I'm just being lazy and rather waste my time on Facebook or watching videos.Damn, i know i'm gonna regret this. But HAHAHA. It makes no difference now that we're heading school tmrw.

So anwzxz. I feel that i'm being retarded. I striked a conversation with a maid next door. HEH. I don't know why. But she is of a cheerful disposition and she very hyped up that i'm drawn towards her. HEE. And then i was complaining to her that i don't wanna go school tmrw lol. I love to talk to this kind of people cause they makes me feel happy. [: HAHAH SO RANDOM!!

Now, I should talk about my sleepover at my bro's house and his evil deeds huh. Firstly, he made me clean the floor with a tissue paper! When i asked for a sweeping broom, he told me he don't know where it was. Resulting in me painstalkingly picking up rubbish one by one with a miserable piece of tissue!! After i'm all drained out from doing the job, he then magically take out a vacumn cleaner to suck up the dust. WHAT AN ASSHOLE RIGHT. He should have brought it out earlier. -.=

Secondly, we were watching a makeover show, AND GUESS WHAT HE SAID!!
"Eh, imagine if you go for such makeover, then the professionals tell you that the only thing to help you is to change your all face. So sad right." And he continued by patting my back. Wah i was choking on my food lah.

Lastly(of course there's much more!!! but i think i should cut it short!), he refused to give up his bed and made me sleep on the matteress floor. D: I was complaining to him that i've been sleeping on the floor for days, and demanded for the rights of a guest for essential sleeping needs. And then he said, " Have you ever seen a guest sleeping in the master room?" Oh right, I should add on the fact that he wasn't the owner of the house and that wasn't the master room.
-.= In case you don't understand, i have three faithful brothers hahah.

But i still love my brother. ;D

My head is spinning, it feels like the whole world is turning upside down. Suddenly, it becomes just me against the world. I have no companion, for no one truly understands. I begin to lose my control and let emotions get the worse of me. It's taking too much of me..
I'm afraid. But i can't really explain why.

Recently, i've been occupied with work which pretty much gives me headache. And everytime when i turned on the TV, i'm drawn to reality shows. Those unfortunates, who caught up with some incurable diseases. It just hits on me, and I hate to be living in a facade. Even as i'm breathing effortlessly now, I'm aware that in some parts of the world there are people suffering. I hate to know this.

You just never realised what you have until you don't have it.

Don't let me go.

It feels so foreign when i look back at those posts i typed last time. It's more of the mixed feelings and i wondered if i really enjoyed the present, or the past. It seemed like my senior years are packed with all the school work and results. I had always complained that time is not enough for me. Though these 2 years been real hectic for me, I realised that i had really put my time into good use; doing better things with friends or work. Time is like magic.

Now, things are different. Prince charming's kiss does not work on Snow White anymore and she will never see light again. It just feels like someone had stabbed right into your heart and blood is flowing out profusely. As much as you are desperate to stop that red irony-taste fluid from leaving your body, it just refuses to listens. Endlessly, this is how killing it can be.

WELLLS,
I don't really know what i'm doing here. It's 2.39pm now. My eyes are popping out and my head's spins alittle. I think i'm officially drained out. Zero power*
And i think i'm a little too obsessed with Jap shows, keep watching like non-stop. There's this one show i loveeeeeeeeeeee alotzxzxz called "Absolute Boyfriend". Omg. The robot's devotion for the girl is g o d l y!! I mean, i can never find a guy who would treat me like that. He rather be scrapped to pieces, than to see his gf suffer from the relationship. Ahhhhh. You have to watch it to be touched. Anw. Most jap series's about 11 episodes, fast to know the ending. [:
Computer time for me seemed to be extended ever since i bonded with my lappy. Study time seemed to decrease significantly. Out with susususu at great world today and we realised all the revision we were talking way before holidays is screwed up. We've been busy having fun these holidays k. zZZZZZZ Went downstairs to study with neighbour and realised i've been out the hols!!! This is crazy. Me never once stayed at home for a full 24h day.
SOS!Someone please switch me to study mode!!!!!!!!

These days, i went shopping, got a new phone(ITS IN PINK HEE), got a new lappy, study dates, chill out with all my different best friends and retarded family. Did all the cool things, except for staying at home hahah. There's once, i stayed at home after watching " Ghost of girlfriends past" with fronda, i had a terrible headache! Pure coincidence yeah.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm left with a week plus to school! TIME IS RUNNING OUTTTTTTTT! DD:

Right, i think pictures can tell you a better story than i do. [:

TO MY FAVOURITE SONG!!!

There's some things we don't talk about rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling

I've been dreaming of all the crazy unbelievable things these nights. Like how a duck can't swim, cause he's scared of heights, like how a cat jump from pools to pools downstairs, like how i became a warrior because i wanted to save durian plantations. I'm not lying, nor exagerating. But i'm having all these weird dreams. It's true. I can't believe myself too.

But last night, i had the sweetest dream ever, this 2009.
I dreamt on 19 june, you and i. collide...

K. I know. Since it's just a dream, it won't come true. Oh wells.

I'm back from my lovely primary school gathering! It feels eff great to be able to talk like the past, as if we've never separated in different schools before. The get-together feeling, the i-know-you're-a-toot-last-time feeling, gave me true warmness in my heart. Isn't this what friendships all about? Those magical feelings, and i still can't help but to smile widely hahha.

We went Minds' at Boatquay. Although it's alittle squeezy in there, but the games we played were like thunder, making our hearts beat rapidly. Last year, the xmas celebration with Cakers were also at Minds. We were playing the Seize the Bone game. HAHAHA. I was so occupied with changing cards, i'm so oblivious to surroundings, i forgot to snatch the bone!!! BUT THIS TIME WAHHAHHAHHA. I'MMA PRO!!! I MANAGED TO PLAY TILL THE END FOR 3 CONSECUTIVE TIMES. YES AH! ;DDDDD (And sorry to Pooh bear for i got alittle too panicked, and spilled the drinks over you heh.)

Anw. I'm glad but worried that my extra lessons for this hols had came to an end. Glad that i no need to force myself out of bed so early. But worried that i might let laziness take over me, and not focused on studies. PLEASE DONT LET MYSELF DOWN!!

I'm in love with......... this song hahhaha!
"NEVER SAY NEVER-THE FRAY" It's nothing of uniqueness, just a simple ordinary song with lyrics repeating over again. But it seemed that it is calling out for my heart. Hmm.
Dont let me go.

Suddenly, i feel all old and senile.

K hear this, maybe you would agree with me later on lol. About 2 days ago, i lost my toothbrush. Then i was looking for it around, but to no avail. So, fronda gave me a new one. That same night, i can't find the new one again! So where it landed? INSIDE THE FREAKING DUSTBIN!! OMG. I don't recall myself throwing them away, but those evidences seemed to be staring at me with open eyes! Grrrrrrrrrrr, i don't know.

I know it's been so long since i last blogged. And i know i promised the intro of "We got married". But i'm sorry, i think i'm gonna skip that cus... i don't know, i suddenly feel i'm typing crapz. Perhaps, i'm under medication that's why i can't think well. Maybe, my mood swings, fast lol.

I'm watching acoustic videos on Youtube. And i'm enjoying ever single bit of it. ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST WENT JAMMING LAH! Really missed those crazy days. Sigh, i still think i'm getting old.

When i was walking home alone this evening, all random thoughts seemed to complete my empty mind hahah. In a flash, i can vividly recall the scene when me and ive roamed Bugis streets during our sec 2 days right after school. It seemed just like yesterday that we had skipped lessons again, hopping around sch,watching our seniors, fantasizing ... And when days were down, we would pretend as if school is our playground and start playing catching and screaming our heads off. Those days ah. As if, there's no other people in the world, but just me and my best friends, living in a sweet dream. When things come by so easily, studies, achievements is so so within our grasp. Oh gee. What can i say? THOSE WERE THE DAYS WAHAHHA! Speaking of which, it's dear ivey birthday soon. Yeah, i'm sixteen, she's gonna be as old too.

Now i'm sixteen, i'm working very hard to achieve my target. I want to get in SAJC!!!! I REALLY WANT TO!!!! So, i'm working my ass off. SO PEOPLE, PLEASE DONT ASK ME OUT AGAIN. I wanna stay home and spend quality time with my sweetheart books lol.

Now that i'm sixteen, i think i have a little bit better idea on these 3 words called " I love you". After so much, i'm definitely, sure of, (confirm plus chop!), no doubts abt it that, i'm not gonna let these words out of me easily. It's such a BIG HUGE GIANTIC difference on how i view love when i was 13, secondary 1. And i believe for all of us, thoughts and views changed when you really experienced it. I'm a older, wiser person now wahhahahh.

And yup, HAPPY EIGHTEEN NIAO NIAO!!! Birds forever! [:

It kills to know that part of me is still thinking of you, at this very moment of time. I mean, really.