I was staring at all my past facebook pictures.
Some things, some people. Meant so much to me and i won't never ever wanna let go.
Maybe this is why, there's just some things that I can't do, that I can't sacrifice.
Love y'all so much. (:

It's 1am already, i'm freaking tired after the late movie but i'm still up awake.
It's been troubling me so much, I don't know what to do. Oh no, i know exactly how i should handle it in an ideal way, but that's just in theory. We've learnt so much, what we ought to do, ought to be... But in real life, things doesn't go your way. They are complex, uncertain, superficial...
I thought that the seventeen year old me is realistic enough already. That I've been through such heartaches and so, I'll never let it happen to me again. That I've been watching my friends crumble and fall and so, I'll know the right remedy to cure.
As much as I tried to convince myself that these are true, and that i'm strong and brave enough already, I can't deny my heart. I still suck at it.
Guess that's life. Even though you know that it's gonna hurt so bad, you still will go for it.
Even though it's gonna fail, you still will pin high hopes on it.
But it's okay, just go ahead with it. Even though I can't exactly settle for "at least, you tried your best" as a form of consolation, I think that this is a mean to not let your heart down.
Cry when you're sad, shout when you're angry.
Oh yeah and this:

"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours."

Have been echoing in my mind.

hi. it's been a long long while since i blogged. but i know sweethearts like weenee and val will drop by here once in a while haha. i always say that time past fast, but its hell damn true. whenever i visit this site and look at my past entries, i will think that i'm damn childish to worry over trival matters in the past. but all those, makes great memories and my parcel of growing up. so it's good in the sense that i get to recall how simple and joyous my life was back then. of course, i'm not trying to say that my current life sucks. but it's always nice to be young huh.
actually, i'm not sure what i am driving at now. i'm just typing anything that comes up of my mind haha. oh i love my past haha.
lately, there's many events that drive my emotions right down to an imaginary pit. i think that i can't do much to change it but it's seriously affecting me. and i don't think i'm telling my friends about it.
the bottom line is. i think i've changed.

I'm sorry for feeling this way, I'm sorry for reacting like that.
Seeing the grey clouds on my way home makes me down too.
But after this, I've made up my mind that I would never ever make myself feel this way anymore.
Another thing, I dislike birthdays,
Now it seemed more like a hassel.
Hopes, surprises, smiles ain't real, wishes ain't coming true.
It's like everything's falling apart and birthdays do not hold that special meaning close to heart anymore.
Maybe I'm just a bitch who just think of the dark side, maybe it's just today.

Who knew i'm gonna blog again!! :DD
HAHA From DEC2009 to APRIL2010, who'll expect my change?
I'M IN CJC NOW!! (Tho sometimes i'm depressed that my friends' aint here, I should be contented with what i have now.)
Was looking through my previous blog, how childish could I get man?
Could never ever ever expect that someone will visit my old blog 3 years later. HAHA TERENCE CHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
I can't delete too cause I completely forgot my another account's id and password.
Anyway, if wee's gonna see this, I wanna you know that I MISS YOU!! Remember you created this blog for me? HAHAH! :D
And of course, best,daught,wifey,partner,cow,bro,fish,dog,hum,deer I MISS YOU GUYS TOO. BUT I'M GONNA SEE YOUR FACES SOON AGAIN! (:
Will blog again when I feel good.

There's some things,
once you missed it, it's gone.
****!!!!!!!!!!!!!